neva had dis fyln growin insyd me bfo’..
az if evritn seemz prfct
duno u fo lng
bt it fylz lyk ur d 1..
d 1 dat gawd mde fo me…
evritn fylz lyk a fairytale,
a fairytale wea i cn c ur smyl thru d rainbow,
fyl ur touch evri sec wimmi..
walkin hand in hand 2geda..
n neva wuna stp…
dis iz a dream um livin in..
n i duno hw lng dis iz guna last
bt baby..onli if i kud stp tym,
id wan 2 b in ur armz, hold u tyt,
n neva let go..
neva wuna wake up frm dis dream..
frm dis beautiful dream wea v’l olweZ b 2geda..
n evn if i du,
evri mrnin wuna wake up in ur armz..
n b dea fo’eva..
til ma las breath,
dat i breathe fo u…
Um nt sure y um wrytin dis..i went onlyn 2 luk up fo info’mation on suicide: statisticz,methodz n ol dat stuff..i wuz raised in a family whea I uzd 2 pray evriday n wuz tau8 d importance of gawd..a gawd dat duzn akchili exist…it duzn mata..it duzn hlp me…he wuz neva dea..I got hurt..rili bad..wen I wuz a child..i wuz hurt in a way dat no prsn or no lil child shud b hurt… I thnk bout suicyd on a daily basis..sumtymz itz ol I cn thnk bout..hw 2 end dis wasted lyf..been on medicationz 2 hlp d depression..d mental disorderz..n been kold a whore fo dat…um sik ov it ol..cnt tke dis pain n emptiness..y shud I evn bother tryin nemoe..? um nt evn afraid ov dyin..nt afraid ov d pain..i juz wan 2 end dis lyf..inorder 2 stay hapi..i kno iv olwez been a burden fo u..bt rili din mean 2 bthr u ppl..um rili sry..tryna fo’giv me..luv u ol so mch..guna mis u..bt gota du dis fo il b hapi in d end..il finalli b free…